Monday, July 06, 2009

Gutted

As many of you know, my grandparents raised me. They bought my first car, they taught me to roller skate, they took me for ice cream cones, and they loved me they best they could. They did what my parents were unable to do.

My grandfather was found dead in his bedroom this morning.

And I am totally gutted. Absolutely beside myself.

David and I had been the only ones caring for him for several long, hard years. And we are left with sorting out what remains of his life here.

It's going to be a long hard haul for me. I will be back here when my heart isn't in my throat anymore.

60 comments:

  1. my thoughts are with you during this time---i'm very sorry to hear of your grandfather....

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  2. I am so horribly sorry for your loss. I understand that gutted feeling and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  3. So very sorry, Sarah. What a horrible loss.

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  4. I'm so sorry. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you during this time. (((hugs)))

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  5. I am sending you all the love I have. I hope you find some peace, as I am sure he has.

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  6. Oh my god honey, I'm so sorry. I know words dont really help, I'm so sorry for your loss. ((HUGS))

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  7. Dear Sarah, I don't often comment, but had to send you my condolences on the loss of your Grandfather. I understand the pain you're in...just remember you are in our thoughts and prayers. *elaine*

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  8. Oh, I will keep you and your family in my prayers! May God grant you abundant peace and comfort during this time.

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  9. I'm so sorry, Sarah. You are in my thoughts.

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  10. Oh Sarah. I'm so very sorry. ;-(

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  11. Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm sending hugs your way. Take care.

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  12. I am so sorry. It really feels like you are getting more than your fair share of heartache lately. Sending you virtual hugs and lots of prayers that each day will be measurably easier than the day before.

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  13. I'm so sorry Sarah, you're in my thoughts.

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  14. I am so sorry to hear about your loss Sarah. My thoughts and prayers go out to you all.
    ((((HUGS))))
    Judy

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  15. Sarah,I was raised by my grandparents too.When my grandfather passed I was devastated,your word"gutted" says it all.Peace be with you!

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  16. Oh Sarah! You will totally be in my prayers. What a crudy few months for you. I am really praying things are looking up soon for you and your family :)

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  17. You are in my thought and prayers.

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  18. No words just love and prayers.

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  19. I'm so sorry for your loss. I too will be praying for you and your family.

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  20. I'm so so sorry.

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  21. Oh what a hard year for you. I'm so sorry. You're in my prayers.

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  22. I'm so sorry for your loss, Sarah! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Diana

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  23. I'm so sorry Sarah. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  24. So sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you...

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  25. I'm so sorry, you'll be in my thoughts.

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  26. Oh, Sarah. I'm so very sorry to hear about your grandfather. It must be a shock for you.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  27. *hugs*

    my thoughts and prayers are with you

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  28. My thoughts and prayers are with you. xop

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  29. oh, dear, sweet sarah. i'm so so sorry. peace to you.

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  30. I am so sorry, my thoughts and prayers are with you. :)Lisa

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  31. Sarah offering you my deepest condolances on the loss of your beloved grandfather.
    Lola

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  32. Bless your heart. I am so sorry.

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  33. Thinking of you and your family, Sarah sweetie.

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  34. Hugs to you and the family. Take care.

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  35. Oh Sarah I am so sorry. Big hugs to you

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  36. I am so sorry. I didn't know your grandparents raised you. This must be so hard for you. I hope you will soon find some peace and that you will be surrounded by loving and supportive friends and family. I was thinking about you today for another reason, but will tell you more when you are back.

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  37. I am so sorry to hear of your loss

    Thoughts and prayers are with you

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  38. Oh Sarah, how awful!! I've got you and family in my prayers! Peace to you all.

    Molly

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  39. Oh I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you. You & your family are in my thoughts & prayers.

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  40. Sarah, there aren't words. I'm just so sorry. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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  41. I am so sorry for your loss! You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  42. I'll be praying for you and your family. I to was raised by my grandparents for a bit, and know that some day too I will have this feeling. Love.

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  43. oh, sarah, i'm so sorry for your family.

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  44. My deepest sympathies are with you and your family. I'm my Mom's caretaker. She's got Alzheimer's.

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  45. Sarah, I am so sorry. You have had such a rough year. Wish you were here. Vicki at Hollyhocks

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  46. Oh Sarah I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
    My thoughts are with you
    Alison

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  47. Oh, Sarah, please accept my sympathies. I'll keep you in my prayers.

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  48. I'm so sorry to hear of your garndfather's passing. I was especially close to my grandfather, too. So, I know the pain you are feeling. Please accept my deepest sympathy for you and your entire family at such a difficult time.

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  49. I'm so sorry Sarah for your sudden loss. Words can do nothing, but our thoughts and prayers will lift you up
    Robin

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  50. Anonymous8:49 AM

    This is only the second time I have visited your site and I was so sorry to read your sad news. I was brought up by my Gran and I know how devestated I was when she died. I hope life gets better soon. And remember the pain does improve (just keep looking back on all your happy memories).
    Sending you lots of love and hugs from Yorkshire UK.
    Wendxxx

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  51. I'm so sorry Sarah. My best thoughts are with you......Rick

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  52. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I will be keeping you and your family in prayer.

    ((Hugs))

    Irma

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  53. I'm so sorry and hate that this has been just one more loss for you in a string of losses. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  54. I am so sorry for your loss. I am extremely close to my grandparents and cannot imagine life without them.
    Have grace for yourself to find peace in your own time. We will all be here when you are ready to talk again.

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  55. Sarah, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you will find comfort in the wonderful memories you have of your grandfather.

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  56. Oh Sarah....I am so sorry.

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  57. Oh, Sarah, I am so sorry. xoxo

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  58. Oh no Sara. Take care of yourself and your family! My thoughts are with you.

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  59. So sorry to hear this...

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