And so it goes

Saw nothing on the U/S today but an empty sac. The fetal pole is already gone, not a heartbeat in sight.

When given the choice between keep waiting (reportedly up to a month?) or just have the D&C, I chose the D&C.

Surgery on Wednesday.

Scared shitless to be frank. I can handle this other stuff, but surgery? Scary.

Still feeling like crap, totally out of sorts, anxious and well? to be honest sort of in hell.

Tired. Can't sleep at all.

What a nightmare this is all turning out to be.

I will be back when I am off the hormonal rollercoaster from hell.

Thanks for the good thoughts/prayers and lovely emails.

They do mean a lot to me.