Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Digging Deep

Things are still crazy over here. I have been bleeding a lot since Saturday, but another ultrasound shows the babies are still hanging in there and growing. Reportedly my risk of loss has gone dramatically down, but neither the OB nor the perinatologist has any idea why I am bleeding so much.

So, the wee ones and I are riding the couch for awhile.

I am digging deeper than I ever have before, looking for enough faith to believe we ARE going to make it through this.

I had a crazy long time with bedrest when I was pregnant with the Jack attack, so that part I know I can do.

Keeping the anxiety in check is harder, but I am managing better than I thought I would be.

I have had to re-enroll Jack in preschool because 1) I am unable to really entertain him properly and 2) I am spending an insane amount of time in doctor's offices and hospitals.

He is really quite upset about that, but I am hoping he gets over it quickly.

What good is being home when mama can't even go to the swimming pool? (I was too scared to go before anyway. This is TMI, but once you have had a blood gushing experience while pregnant the last place you want to go is to a pool filled with small children. It wouldn't make nice memories for any of us.)

So. Things will likely be sparse and quiet around here for a bit.

Now back to the couch with me, I have two babies to try and grow. :-)

19 comments:

  1. So glad to hear you and the babies are doing well. You just take it easy and try to think positive thoughts.

    Jack will forget about having missed his mom when he has two little siblings play with.

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  2. Please know that I'm thinking of you. Many prayers and "virtual" hugs to you and your babies.

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  3. Janet6:55 AM

    My best wishes and thoughts are with you. I am at 29 weeks today of my second pregnancy.. I NEVER thought I was going to make it this far. I had multiple gushing blood experiences early on with this pregnancy. I was diagnosed with subchorionic hemorrhage which led to the bleeding. When I went for ultrasounds during active bleeding they could never see the blood clot causing the bleeding, but with in a couple of days it would show. My bleeds continued from several days to weeks sometimes as the old blood worked its way out. Around 22 weeks my hemorrhage resolved itself and I was given the all clear. It is a very scary experience. I highly recommend the subchorionic support group at babycenter.com, http://community.babycenter.com/groups/a2138065
    I hope this info helps. Sorry this post is sooo long, I guess I should have emailed the info.
    Best wishes, and hang in there!

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  4. praying for all of you.
    Daytime TV stinks, maybe a little sewing could pass the time on the couch.

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  5. Praying for you and your babies!! I'm 30 weeks pregnant and like Kim I experienced a subchorionic hemorrhage. I had bleeding from 13to 18 weeks. Very scary, but baby was always fine during ultrasounds. Take it easy and focus on your faith.

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  6. Oops, wasn't Kim's comment but Janet's I was referring to.

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  7. I too had unexplained bleeding with my pregnancy. They were never able to figure out what caused it, but I ended up having a healthy baby. Good thoughts and prayers to your babies.

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  8. You do take care of yourself, I am sorry I had no idea what you were dealing with, selfish me just looking for pictures of your beautiful home. Please do keep us all up to date with your progress. Hugs and Kisses, Diane

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  9. Anonymous10:16 AM

    Janet...for one I am glad you posted...it makes us ALL feel better about what is happening. You probably helped someone else going through the same thing feel more at ease with the post.
    Take it easy Jack's momma...children are pretty resilient ...but you already know that with Jack. He has surprised you before with his understanding.B.

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  10. TWO BABIES??? Oh Sarah, I'm so excited for you guys! To be doubly blessed like this! Take good care of yourself, and let your family take care of you too. And pleeease keep us updated when you can!

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  11. Well girl, I hope you have a lap top computer. Sitting that desk beside you wouldn't be any fun.

    Sing. Sing lullabys. Sing Jesus loves me. And pray too. You and those peanuts are going to do just fine. You have all kind of bloggers praying for you.

    If you werne't so far away, I'd come and cook and clean for you.

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  12. Thinking good thoughts!

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  13. Oh boy, do I know bedrest!!!! Jack sounds like a pretty neat kid. I bet he'll feel very responsible for the twins' safe arrival when he realizes how much he helped. It will be fun to have another twin mom blogger! Hang in there. My doc said that bleeding without cramping is "no big deal". Easy for her to say...

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  14. I am breathing a sigh of relief. So good to read your post today. Please stay down as much as you can. I know it is easier said than done when you have another little one who needs you too. I think about you everyday and I send my very warmest and sincere best wishes for you and your family, especially the two little peas in your pod.

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  15. well dig deep & relax! Jack will definitely be fine once those babies are here. They forget Mommy being busy with prenancy!
    when i was pregnant with my 3rd child (the one i never thought i would have) i had a uterine tear at about 13 weeks. i was put on bedrest. it was so scary but God is good & she is a healthy 5 year old now.
    still praying for you.

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  16. Oh Sarah, I love the hope I feel coming from you in this post. I will be hopeful with you - thinking of you and all your little ones and sending you prayers and happy thought.

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  17. Oh dear Sarah sending lots of positive thoughts and love your way. Keep growing sweet babies
    Alison

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  18. Sarah, a feather blew across my path today and I thought of you and prayed. Just know there are lots of us out here praying for you and the babies.

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  19. oh wow! I just caught up here and I'm so excited, happy and scared all at the same time! It is encouraging to hear about other commenters here having similar experiences. Sending you hugs and huge prayers Sarah!

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