Thursday, September 06, 2012

I could just cry

Ah well. Went to the OB this morning.

And now TBA is breech.

And I am already dilated 2 cm. Once that started with Sam it was a pretty quick road to a baby.

My gut keeps saying there is no way I am getting out of this without a c-section. Which means someone to take care of the kids for even longer, and then what? I dont have a lot of support and there will be all those weeks of not supposed to lift things and blah blah. I have a 24 lb diaper wearing toddler at home. How the hell am I going to pull that off?

I really want to cry.

And I REALLY need this baby to turn back to head down.

Just stay in there for 14 days and turn yourself around.

Oh yea, I had to take Sam to the ped yesterday.

And she has croup. And all she does is sob right now.

I need to be talked off the ledge.

Seriously.

*This* was a completely unexpected complication.

Lord give me strength.

And turn this baby the right fucking way around. Now preferably before my stupid water breaks and it's too late.

13 comments:

  1. Miss Sarah. I am so sorry. Now put this all in perspective. In a month or two this will all be over and somehow it will all be worked through. that baby is happy and healthy and will come out no matter how much you worry. Sammi is going to get over her croup and if she has to wear a diaper for an extra minute I promise she won't melt. Huge hug and now you can step down. I'll get you a hankie...smiles...Renee

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  2. Floor diaper changes. Not the best solution, but it will work.

    I'm a fan of gently poking the belly and telling that baby to get back right, but it might not be the best way to go about it.
    xo

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  3. Hug. Wish I had that magic wand in hand right now to make it all rosy...hang in there.

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  4. I'm sorry it all feels so ovewhelming right now. Thinking of you.

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  5. Oh, Sarah. I so wish you lived closer. I would be there for you in a minute. Praying for you. Please, baby, turn that cute little bum back up. Mama and her friends are begging!

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  6. Deep breaths. Start looking up ways to turn the baby, I know there are a bunch out there.
    A csection sounds scary, but it really isn't all that bad, in fact my recovery was actually faster with my csections than with my naturals(first 4 were natural last 3 were csections). The key is to move to heal. And I had toddlers in diapers with no help around either. You can do it if you have to.
    Think positive(want to slap me for saying that right?), say a prayer, and let go of the anxiety. Worrying isn't going to change things it will only make you feel worse.
    Things will work out just like Renee said.

    Sending a prayer that Sammi feels better soon and TBA turns before labor begins.

    (((hugs)))

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  7. I would be googling breech babies and seeing what's out there (within reason). I am so wishing good things for you.

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  8. i'll bet all of us wish we lived closer - we could start a volunteer schedule!

    and yeah, like becky said, floor diaper changes. or bed diaper changes. somewhere she can get to without you lifting her and without discomfort to you.

    turn, baby, turn!

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  9. baby turning thoughts for you from me! :)

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  10. darlin' did you have any luck finding a nanny? The more help you can find now will benefit the family when TBA comes home. Poor baby Sammi {{hugs}} hard to prepare a little one of change when they feel so crappy!! If you can muster any strength, perhaps you can make a game of diaper change-"be a helper & get a reward" Don't know your Sammi, so perhaps it wouldn't work, but maybe you can think on it to tailor it to her personality. You have gone thru so much for your family-soon you will have THREE children!!! YAY for YOU!!

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  11. I could cry for you! Wish you lived closer so I could help. Instead I will pray for TBA to TURN!! xoxo

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  12. Thinking of you and sending baby lots of "TURN AROUND" vibes!!! Sending YOU lots of hugs.

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  13. spinningbabies.com. Turned my little breechling right side down and facing the correct direction after just one of their recommended exercises (that involved basically doing a headstand off of the couch...)

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