Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Tick Tock

I am having a bit of a rough day emotionally. It all started about 2 weeks ago when Jack started asking us every single day if it was time for him to go to school yet. It came to a head yesterday when he put his backpack on and sat in front of our front door for nearly 30 minutes. He told me he was "waiting to go to school like the other children."

While I am super duper thrilled that he loves school and wants to go more often, I am a little sad because this is the very first time that Jack has actually *wanted* to leave me. He started the Parents Day Out program so that I could have a little break, and now it is so much more than that. Already gone are the days when he wanted me to go to school with him, and they went fast.

So, when I pick him up today I will enroll him for a second day each week. And I will try and remind myself that time is indeed passing, and that I have always sworn I will give him both roots and wings.
Trying to distract myself I went to the thrift this morning. I found these 2 pink depression glass pieces, a first for me. They are gorgeous, and so delicate. I once saw an old oatmeal box at the antique mall that had an ad on the side of it stating that inside with the oatmeal was a piece of green glassware.

Crazy how much the world has changed in 75 years, isn't it? I cannot even imagine getting glassware inside my oatmeal box.
Christmas is inching closer, so I have been on the hunt for more ornaments. I picked up a big box of them this weekend and once I had them all sorted out I discovered a full two dozen of this style in the box. I love that the glitter is all tarnished and there are interesting colors like orange. I sold all of the solid colored ones that were in the box yesterday.

I also went to Target this morning to check out this year's Christmas offerings. There are a few things I would love to get my paws on, but not as much as last year. Of course my spirits were dampened by a very grouchy old man who was complaining loudly to every employee in the store about the Christmas stuff being out already. (What did he think a stock clerk was going to do about it? Put it all back in the back? LOL)
This is likely the last rose in the garden until next spring. I have never had one like it in the garden before, the orange stripes on the yellow are really gorgeous. And perfect for the changing season.

Tick tock, tick tock.


  1. Oh Sarah, I'm soo sorry you are having a rough day. Please know that every momma I have ever known has dealt with these same emotions. Focus on your wise words of "roots and wings".

    On a completely different note, I sure would like to be able to find great vintage Christmas ornaments like the ones you showed. I look weekly all year round and have yet to find any. Hmmm. But, the thrill really is in the hunt. :)

  2. I remember the day I picked my son up from preschool and he excitedly said "and I didn't even miss you today!" He was so proud of himself, and it just broke my heart. Loving people so much can be hard sometimes...

    I love your ornaments, and the rose is beautiful!

  3. Oh Sarah that sounds a bit tough... I hope your day starts looking up. Like Dana said focus on your wise words.

    I think I *need* to go to Target and see if there is any Christmas stuff left that I want:)

  4. I feel for you. It's hard when they want to leave you.

    Love the ornaments! And the pink depression glass is wonderful.

  5. Sarah- my Hannah is starting preschool up at the college next semester and she ALREADY talks about it everyday and hasn't even been yet. They grow up too fast! It's hard, but good to watch them become more independent.

    I love those ornaments, they remind me of the ones my mom has from my grandmother. SO neat! I love your attention to detail and joy of nature. You truly inspire me.

  6. I love that you are showing X-mas stuff,but in fall colors!!!! I'm almost like that grumpy old man...I want to wait just a week or so longer till I dive into X-mas!
    All I can say about Jacks new independence and your feelings is....been there!I know you know its a good thing and he still needs you for a thousand little tiny things! I always take comfort in that as my youngest will begin kindergarten next year!
    For pre-school ,perhaps you should check out some local co-ops. I co-opped with my oldest and it was fairy tale like.My hubs urged me to try a more independent track for my littlest and it has been an excellent choice for her,but I still kinda wished I had co=opped with her too.

  7. Maren is already telling me how much she wants to go to school, but I'm still at the point where I can't wait for her to go so I can have a break. :) I'm sure I'll experience what you are though, somewhere down the line. She's such an independent little child that I'm afraid it will be sooner rather than later.

    Lover the ornaments! I just got back from Target and I looked at all the Christmas stuff and thought, "eh." Not like last year! I did like the big glass glitter snowflakes--they look a lot like my Wendy Addison ones but at about a third of the price, LOL. I may have to get a few more to add to my collection--it will look like a snowstorm in my front room! :)

  8. I hope your day has improved by now. The wings part is much harder than the roots part -- they never tell you that! Love the Christmas ornaments!

  9. Gorgeous rose.

    I remember the days when my children wanted to go to preschool. At first it made me a little sad, but then it made me happy and reconfirmed that I had made the correct decision sending him. It will get better.

  10. You know, I am thinking that even though Jack is asking to go to school who knows that Mom will be there to pick him up when it's all over and bring him home. :)

    The ornaments are gorgeous, I'm so not erady for Christmas! LOL Getting in gear this weekend though. I went to Target, too and saw a few things myself. Great, like I need any more Christmas stuff LOL

  11. Oh Sarah. Hang in there. It is so hard to both want them to grow strong and independent, and at the same time see them pulling away. Motherhood is tough tough business.

    I do love all of your orange and yellow-y-ness (it's a word).

    Glass... in food. Now that's funny.

  12. Aas a Mother of a Pre-schooler, I am with you!!! Griffin loves, I mean loves school. He cried on Tuesday when school was closed for election day. My husband says cherish it, he will soon be like our 17 year old son who hates to go. Its never easy is it!!!


  13. Anonymous5:19 PM

    That is such a nice way of putting it, "roots and wings." I was looking forward to Nikayda going to school because she was more than ready. {Meaning, I definitely noticed a lot more fighting between her and Abram during the year leading up to school.} ;) But it was still really hard on the first day. It does get better though. I promise! I hope your day is going better. :)

    Your rose is beautiful. And I love the glasses and vintage ornaments! I would love to find more depressionware. Let me rephrase that...I'd love to come across more depressionware in my price range. ;)

  14. Anonymous5:26 PM

    It's so nice to have you paving the way for me. We'll start our first in Mother's Day Out in January. I'm looking forward to the break, but not the emotional part of him having something he wants to do more than spending time with me...

    I have to agree about the roots AND wings; I will have to remember that one. I also have to say that I'm proud of you for sticking with letting him be in charge of his own independence. We're even letting our kiddo self wean. And it's been affirming for all of us that he needs to be in charge of as much as he can.

    I love that rose. The yellow and orange are so pretty!

  15. Your a good mama for giving the extra time at school that he is enjoying so much. It's hard to let them be big, but so nice to have the little break. And the best part is when you pick them up from school and they are so excited to see you and tell you about their day.

    Orange has to be one of my favorite colors! I haven't been to Target yet, but I did check out KMart's Martha Stewart Christmas line today. I am so not ready for this Christmas season....

  16. Anonymous7:32 PM

    first off, i'm with the grouchy old man. i haven't let myself look at anything Christmas-y yet.

    also, have you considered making a calendar to show jack what day he goes to school on?
    here's one i did:

  17. Sigh... we've all been there.I celebrate milestones and at the same time weep. Ahhh...the life of a GOOD mother. You are right on, root and wings! but no one said it would be easy. Chin up ---he will always love you and more so coming home from school.

  18. Sigh. The post and all the comments have me choked up! We just have no idea what mothers go through until one becomes a mother. Can't wait to join that club tough as it is.

  19. My heart skiped a beat to this post, Oh it is such an upsetting time when your little one wants a bit of free time, my older one never did and even today he would rather be at school, not so with my youngest...he is off like a shot and I have to remind him to give me a kiss and cuddle, its upsetting and reassuring all at the same time, Motherhood is never easy on the emotions. Whilst my older one adores being with me, he does struggle at school so I guess its best when they want to stretch their wings a little...yer I know it does not help, but I know how you feel...Love the glass wear.

  20. Anonymous2:04 AM

    I hope that you're not so blue anymore! I'm actually really thrilled that Jack has grown to love his time at school so much - I still get a little angry myself when I remember the first one that he went to!

    I love your sentiment about "roots and wings" because says what it needs to perfectly!

  21. Ah, yes. Those little ones do have a way of not staying little. You'll get used to each change and love every minute.

    You did good with those ornaments! I don't believe I ever seen any like those.

    I remember as a kid in the 1960s getting glassware in oatmeal boxes and pulling out dish rags from washing powder boxes. I also remember my mother and grandmother lamenting that the things we got just weren't as nice as they used to be.

    The rose is beautiful.

  22. Oh Sarah! I've been there too. It's hard, as a mom, to see just how quickly they grow up and gain independence. With my DS starting Kindergarten this year, it was a bit shocking to have a quiet house five days a week, all day. And then having him tell me he only wanted to ride the bus to/from school! Luckily, there are still times, like this entire week, where he WANTS ME to take him to school, have lunch with him and pick him up.

    You should feel proud of yourself for raising a wonderful son, who is eager to go to school and learn. Part of that is because he knows you'l lalways be there for him. :)

  23. sarah, i hope ur day is looking up since u first posted.

    good idea on the thrift store to distract ur thoughts... nice SCORE on those vintage ornamanets!!

  24. Time is flying by! I'm sure once he starts going to school, he'll want to stay home again. :)

    By the way, I would probably eat oatmeal if they put glassware in the box! :)

  25. Anonymous9:05 AM

    Oh Sarah as a mother of 3 teenage boys I remember these feelings so well, it's only natural for both of you and what a great excuse to go thrifting.

  26. I know it's coming but I'm not really ready for Christmas! I need another month or two to catch up!

    I'm sorry you're having a rough day. Hang in there!

    Such a lovely rose.


Hi there. What say you?