Friday, November 29, 2019

A visit to santa

Grant wants EVERYTHING this year, Sam's list is pretty reasonable and Jackson has not a clue what he could he use. LOL This santa has spent a lot of time the last two years chatting up the kids and really being pretty awesome. He even engaged Jack, which I appreciate.
 I picked up an instant collection of 45 records a few weeks ago, the graphics are so good.
And I have been hunting unsilvered ornaments for an unsilvered tree.

Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Magic pockets

In my early 20s I had a relationship with someone that had magic pockets.

He had an uncanny ability to anticipate problems and prepare in advance. They were small problems, sure, but, it was never short of the most helpful thing ever. Have a blister? I have a band aid! Hung over? I have an alka seltzer! Hungry? I have a taco!

When the kids were small it was easy to have my own magic pockets - that one will need a nap, this one will need a snack, I’m going to need a break after that...

I’ve spent years mastering that skill.

Right now everything is so topsy turvy there is no anticipating anything. Wake up, pee on that days fires, toss and turn all night, get up and do it again.

It’s heightened my awareness of two things - I depend heavily on my own magic pockets and I sure do miss feeling like answers are just a pocket away.

Monday, November 25, 2019

There really are no appropriate titles

There's been so much going on over here.  I feel a lot like there really just is no place to even discuss it. Obviously I use Instagram more than the blog now, but Instagram does not feel like family like it used to here.

Today I am spending hours and hours and hours sitting in a surgical dermatologists office while dave has a sizeable skin cancer removed in a MOHS surgery from his ear.  It's in a challenging spot, and who knows what awaits me on this day. Skin grafts, reconstruction, it's all a mystery until the day is over I suppose.

As if that wasn't really stressful enough, my mother was diagnosed with alzheimers last Friday. It's been a pretty rapid decline from her usual airheaded type stuff to where she can barely even use a debit card on her own.  I am completely and utterly freaked out about this for so many reasons.  First is that she is really the only grandparent my kids know. I am GUTTED for them. Second is that it has rapidly become something else I have to juggle while I still have two small kids, one teenager and no help. (Dave's family doesn't live here, my dad is not any help and my mom was pretty much my only back up.) And I do not even really have a clue where to begin.  We still have to see the neurologist, and I am sure they will tell me where to start, but, well, all the feelings and thoughts and things about this.  She and I have an extremely complicated relationship as it is, and this development is really forcing me to unpack 44 years worth of mother baggage in about a week's time.

So, there we are.  Husband with skin cancer (he had two other spots removed which thankfully were benign, but he's on a 6 month check schedule for a few years), mother with alzheimers, kids with all the kid things, let's not forget my own health issues (hello RA!) and the holidays bearing down on me like a train.  I am really trying to just keep swimming, but I swear, all of life is just keep swimming and I am wearing out from it all. :(

Jack drives

 poppet, just because
 Turning 15 now means learning to drive in Missouri.  Jack passed the test with no problems, but the wait to get the actual permit processed was 4.5 hours! Complete insanity.
It was right after Halloween we went to take the test and grant wanted to wear his dragon costume. One learning to drive, one still wearing costumes everywhere.
And we have had snow already! This happened on veterans day.

Sunday, November 03, 2019


 I thrifted an amazing Alice in wonderland feedsack.
 And a bag of so cute fiber optic witches.
 And quilts and things.
 This one REALLY needed some sun to clean it, but it was already too late in the season and I haven't had a good day since.
 I made a cute runner for my MIL's birthday.
 Thrifted an amazing afghan.
 Grant's been sick again.
And the cat is enjoying the fire in her old (ancient) age.

Saturday, November 02, 2019

A few Halloween things to remember

 Sam's pumpkin from her class party.
 An upgraded porch this year.

 The front window (for my own reference, it was hard to find last years photo)

And a nice new addition to the collection.

Friday, November 01, 2019

Legends and lanterns

 Somehow I hadn't realized that historic St Charles has a Halloween event that is similar to the Christmas one we all really enjoy.  We managed to make it there on the very last day they were open, and it was a super fun time for all of us. There was a hay ride, a scavenger hunt, a Victorian museum (my fav), and loads of historical characters scattered among the streets.  My kids learned SO MUCH from the actors!  (Plus they enjoy collecting the stamps.)
 The make up and costumes are AMAZING.

 (Sam is supposed to be looking wretched, LOL)

We will definitely be doing this again next year!